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JUNE 16, 2019

Eiqbal whatsapp and ask me to come to Mega mall. He will wait for me there. I said that i just waiting for him outside but he said that he already buy for me the ticket and will left on the counter. I arrived late, then i just get in inside the cinema room. I saw him then i just sit one chair beside. I was so nerves, i don't know why? But just be calm...I still love him but this time i need to stop it all since he also already release all too...So after that we try to find a cafe to eat together, then he said maybe we can go to Mydin. Then i just follow :) Then just go back..suppose i want ask him to go Ikea but it's too late. 

JUNE 13, 2019

He was whatsApp me to know where am i? Then he scared if i go to Sunway to meet him? hurmmm....i just quiet i don't want to talk much to him anymore! I just feel disappointed with him..suppose he can tell me bout this and we can plan to meet them up...Then he just hidden him self. So selfish, this is raya ok! everybody want to meet someone they love..my friends bring home his girlfriends cz raya, nobody will angry and assume anything. So since yesterday i just quiet....till he whatsapp me " Saya xtau apa masalah sebenarnya hingga u langsung tak nak ws. Tapi i angap u dah buang i. Maybe u dah tak perlukan i lagi agaknya, Tq buat i cam ni..........." I don't know what to say but i feel so give up this time. With my parents give a hope and he just wanna couple and never take this seriuos so i don't know what i must do. He was angry me whatsApp with fareed, and ungkit my friends was never help me if im at Penang..I be so angry...yes he help me and support me everything cz i'm far from them...if they was here then they will always help and be with me! He blame me kaw2 this time since i always blame him at first but when i'm realize, if we not get together i don't want to make him like an enemy just  be someone yang x kenal :) Then i try to cool down...i stop to blame him, but he still never stop to say i'm was buang all his kebaikan like anjing kurap" hurmm...i just cool down...cz i think i will never get a happiness again...Ya Allah if the last one please make me forgot all bout him :)  Actually i'm sad but i don't know this time i feel so release....i will let him go, with someone he love even it's will hurt me...I know his parents also never accept me so just me and my family was hopping to much! I just think my mom and my aunts face how sad they are when they know this? Hurmmm... I pn x taw camner lh lulus kerja i kt Brunei tu myb ayah call his uncle to help...tomorrow ayah will come and register my passport. Then ayah said no need to come cz can do online :) Then ayah was ask me, it's something wrong with u and Eiqbal?? I said no just wanna go, Thanks ayah...maybe this is a time to me to forgot all this...I request to Eiq that i want to meet him for the last but he won't so i just quiet....I just want to hug him for the last actually, that all :) Cz from the hug i will release all...only mom know :) That y she always hug me when i sad or angry cz i will cry and release all and let's them go...